Sometimes I find being gender queer terrifying but even when it's scary it always awesome so it's always worth it. I personally feel that I lean slightly to the side of female, I don't know say 65/35? Maybe a little closer to 75/25. And because I was born in a male body I hate being referred to as a man, where as I don't mind so much being referred to as a woman. In my pursuit to effectively and honestly manifest my gender I felt I needed to be able to "pass" as a woman before I could move back towards the center in a way that is comfortable. The epitome of this conflict has been my haircut. I grew my hair out to pass more effectively but I never really felt comfortable with long hair, I don't like how it feels, it gets in my face, and when I'm pinning someone to the ground (oooh, Sexy) it's always in the way. The other day I finally worked up the courage and cut it short! Yay! I know I said I was going to do it but I wasn't really certain I would. I'm not perfectly happy with the haircut, even so I feel a million times better.
So here's three cheers to self actualization as opposed to pandering to the lowest common denominator!
(No offense to people who have long hair. Long hair is plenty sexy.)
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